Mini School Reunion

Mei is back in KL and so we thought of having a meet-up and without noticing it, we brought back classmates from elementary school. It's a mini school reunion!

We've all changed! Growing up gracefully!

Mich & Mei

I still remember how we hated each other... For what reasons I have no idea... Haha... Maybe cos we didn't talk and we were in different "gangs" in school. Funny how things turned out to be after more than a decade! We miss Vicky here!

Just for Mei...

There you go, Mei. Some updates for you since you've been complaining about my almost non-existing blog. This is my current favourite dress. Second time wearing it since I bought it. Busy with work, plus, there's nothing much to be updated. Just enjoying life as it is now before I get too old to do anything fun. More updates after the weekend party! Awaiting your return on Saturday!

Today's a Gift

Watched Kung Fu Panda last Saturday with David and SY and came accross a meaningful quote : "Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is Mystery, and Today is a Gift (that's why it's called Present)". So learn from the past, live everyday to the full cos we never know what is gonna happen tomorrow.

Drinks, Dinner & Dessert at Pavilion

First stop, drinks at Michelangelo's...

Ade & Mich

Went for dinner at Celadon, a Thai restaurant...

Ade & Mich

Ade was snapping pictures of me secretly... Hehe...

Looking at the menu seriously now...

This part of the restaurant makes it look more like a pillow shop.

And this makes it looks more like a bar.

Dr. Ade was on the phone with Dr. Jack, doing some interview.

David pretending to know a lot about champagne.

Green Curry Chicken & Vege

Lobster Pad Thai

Sweet & sour fish

We moved on to C. Club for desserts...

Deciding on what desserts to have...

Ade & David

A view from the top of Ade's favourite shop...

Mich & Ade

Creme Brulee & Tiramisu

Chocolate Mousse

Awaiting your arrival...

Got this picture in an e-mail from someone special... So freaking happy now... Not because of the gift (I already know what the content is), it's because he is someone who loves me so unconditionally... Thanks for everything dear. Although we're far apart, but you're always in my heart. Sorry cos I didn't make your trip to KL worthwhile last year but I promise I'll make sure your next trip here (which is gonna be SOOOOON!) the best trip ever!!!

Those were the days...

Dying of boredom at work!

Drunk = Horny??

Last weekend I went out with some friends, all males and they were telling me that drunkenness and horniness are closely linked . They said guys get more horny when they are more drunk. How true is this? I think guys are horny at all times, just that the level of horniness differs. I was laughing when they told me that. Some just pretend to be drunk so they don't have to be responsible for their actions. What about us girls? I think girls only do that if they are interested in that guy. There's a Chinese saying that no matter how drunk you are, there's always 30% of consciousness in you. I don't understand why they say when you're drunk, you wouldn't remember what happened the night before. How can you not remember? Maybe you wouldn't remember the details. If you're really really wasted, I think all you can do is SLEEP!

Prank calls at work...

I've been getting prank calls at work for the past months... So I decided to subscribe to the caller ID service for one of my office phones. So the prank calls on that phone have finally stopped, but on another one it continues. Then one day I saw his phone bills and there were all these calls made to my office phone for less than 5 seconds. So I questioned him and all he said was he didn't know anything. He was kind of nervous. Not only that, I also saw all the calls made to my room phone in da middle of the night. Maybe he was trying to check whether I was really at work and home. I knew what was going on but I didn't want to make it big. Once he told me that his dad's friend saw me out with a guy near my office. I was in the office all the time that day and I didn't even go out for lunch. Maybe his dad was lying or he made that all up himself. His parents were trying to break us up all this time but I didn't expect them to go to that extent. And I don't believe he actually believed that. They are just crazy and fortunately, everything has ended and I won't have to put up with them anymore. His ex called me a couple of days ago and I was shocked when she told me things that were totally opposite from what his mum told me. Now I know that she can really lie into people's face. Will let it all out here and share with u guys when I have the time and mood. I seriously can't believe all these. What she told me was a total opposite. Sad when someone so close to you lies straight into your face. His mum even lied to him before about his relationship with his brother. How can you lie to your family?! It's just ridiculous. Gotta stop and get back to work now...

OMG!

Haven't been checking my Yahoo!Mail for so long... Flooded with over 50 mails from my friends... only for the discussion for ONE (1) event. But guess what?! After all these mails have been sent, no conclusion has been made. LOL...

Our first and last anniversary...

Eric's Birthday at Hajime

Located somewhere at Ampang...

Still have time for some grooming before dinner starts...

One of Eric's birthday present?? He seems to like it...


A jacket from us...


It fits perfectly!

Sake!

She's the best!!


Still the best!! =p

One with the LOML!

A pair of new shoes to match the jacket...

Group pic...

The food is good...

Tenpura

Chawanmushi... *the two dots look like a pair of tits*

Cheese Maki!

More nice food!

Baby's dinner came in a box...

Ice-cream, on the house, for the birthday boy!

This is not ice-cream... it's wasabi!

Here comes the bill...

Do we have enough?!

Miss Jerry...

Can't help, but notice Yang's grey hair... Had to pluck for him...

Melody & Jerry... with the sake...

Nightout @ Velvet

The girls...

This pic looks so wrong...

This one is more like it...

Our 1st Trip

Went to HK last week with my darling. No pictures cos this is purely a shopping trip & the weather is just no good for photo taking. I think we've covered all the major shopping malls there. We shopped for 10 hours daily...

Pam's Birthday

Sweet Pam posing for the cam...

Had dinner at Max (located somewhere at Tengkat Tong Shin). The food was great...

My baby & I

Showing off their N95s.... *trying to be artistic at the same time*

I have a phone too.... *notice the wallpaper* Hehehe....


Dessert...

The girls!

First drink for the night... Tequila shots... The birthday gal didnt drink cos she claimed that she had an upset stomache... We accepted that so she got away from drinking...

Cheers...

We got Pam to pick up a guy... *exchanging numbers*

The lucky guy...

Johnson was posing for some shots...

This is more like it...

Great night!

My Very Own Office

Mum got the sofa for me... matching colour...

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My "tools" for making loads of money...

Would you marry a man twice your age?

Will you ever consider marrying a man twice your age? Most of us will give a definite answer: NO! However that's not always the case, it's just that these things haven't strucked you yet. If I ever marry a man twice my age, it would be due to nothing other than his fortune. I'm not materialistics, just REALISTIC. But I don't think I'll ever go that low to marry someone for his money. Many young, pretty and smart girls do that though. I saw it with my very own eyes. They were willing to play the "spare tyres" but yet they want to hide the fact that they are the mistresses to all these rich (and dumb) men. And the worst thing is, they dare call themselves Mrs. ***. They are Mistress *** ok??... I would be ashamed my whole life if I marry someone older than my own father... Some people says it might be true love, but come on... If you see someone who is as old as your father, you wouldn't even waste your time getting to know him and fall in love right?

These girls who are mistresses are really smart if they ever get to be Mrs. ***. It means that they managed to completely brainwash the Oldman and get the Wife kicked out of the house! Pity the stepchildren though. Mistresses will try be nice to them until they get their OWN children. This is where the problem comes in: Wealth Distribution. All parents love their children and they will do everything to protect their best interests. Mistresses are the same. They 'll be afraid that the stepchildren will take away wealth cos fathers normally love the eldest son the most (quite true in our Chinese culture). Mistresses will have a lot of strategies to prevent this from happening. I don't know how cos I'm not one of them, but I know they do.

These Mistresses don't normally have much of a social life too cos they are "locked" in a house and they're not allowed to talk to any other people, moreover guys. All they have to do is just make themselves pretty and always be readily available when their men need them. Seems like an easy job? Of course not! If I can only commute between the beauty parlour and house then I'd rather be dead. As time goes by, you'll be dumber and dumber cos you don't socialise and communicate with the society. Your lives would be so wasted! So to all those pretty and smart girls out there, think before you fall into this cos you'll be risking not only your life, but the lives of your children. They'll be teased for being sons and daughthers of a mistress and the consequences can be severe.

I'm in the workforce... again...

I've never thought that I'll ever be in the workforce again... =p until recently when I was given a choice between studies and work... And I took up WORK, of cos, since I'm so "ambitious"... LOL... I think my family members are more excited than me since my job is to earn money for them (I'll be in the securities market)... I'm a bit excited too cos I'll need to dress-up and look my best everyday... Oooopssss.... Don't I do that everyday already?! *Tee hee* You guys just wait till I earn my "first bucket of gold" and I'll treat you to a big feast!! Wish me luck!!

It's complicated?

Being in love can be the sweetest thing, but it can also be the most painful thing. Romantic relationships can be darn complicated. On Friendster, we evn have the choice of "It's complicated" for our status. What complicates things actually? It's US! We're the one who try to create problems for ourselves actually. Consider the following scenario:

-You like him, and he likes you... Logically speaking, you SHOULD have no problems on going a step further than just friends. However, as expected, things wouldn't work this way in relationships. And so, he tells you that he's afraid that things might turn out ugly and history might repeats itself... So you held back a little... And what happens next? You guys don't talk to each other anymore and better still, not see again... This is just soooooo stupid... You'll never know what you will be missing cos you did not take the chance to find out... Why are human beings so troublesome? When you have something so beautiful right in front of you, you don't appreciate, but when you finally lose it, you'll start regretting and blaming yourself for being a such a dumbass... -

I've actually experienced this twice. I don't regret anything cos I already did what I thought was the right thing to do at that time. Sad, I know. But that's life. I always try to forget this "someone", but it's easier said than done. I came across this saying on my friend's MSN nickname, "Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met". Don't you agree?

We've finally met...

Vincent & I at Luna Bar

Have been chatting with him since last month and finally got to meet him on the first night of CNY. He came back from Perth for holiday. Wanted to bring him to SkyBar but it was closed. So we went to Luna Bar instead. Luckily it wasn't packed and we got to sit next to the window where we can enjoy the KL night view. Before he came to pick me up, I was afraid that it was gonna turn out to be awkward, or maybe boring if we've got nothing much to chat about. But I was wrong. It actually turn out to be fun. We can chat about anything and he's a really nice and understanding person. I actually learnt a lot from him. Thanks for everything... =)

My New Favourite Jeans

Got this pairs of jeans for RM459! Didn't know why it cost much at first, but it's really nice and it fits perfectly! When I got home, I was looking at this pair of jeans... and I found out why did it cost so much... There's this tag on it saying:-

It's expensive, but I like it! :p

My Birthday

This is gonna be one of those photos-heavy post. A picture says a thousand words, so I think I have posted more than 10k words here... Had dinner at TGIF... everyone was late as usual...

Dinner was great... until they made me stood up on the chair... I refused to at first, but gave in at last cos I don't wanna make a scene at the restaurant...

Seng Yong, David, Mich, Pam (hiding behind) & Tze Sing

We went to the one and only Velvet... TS made a great effort to be present cos he didn't turn up for dinner... He actually took a cab there...

Mich & Ming Yen a.k.a Dr. Tong

I made MY the designated cameraman for the night... and he did a great job! *muacksssss*

Pam & Mich




Mich & Wei Lay (with her new haircut)

Yun Ting, Yu Mei & Mich

Mich & Andrew

Mich & Razzaq

Lai Yee, Mich & Yan Leng

Mini SSG Reunion *miss those crazy days*

Jas & Mich

Kok Heo, Jas, Mich & Aaron

Mich, Pam, Yu Mei, Yun Ting & Tze Sing

* <3>

*Happy Birthday*

Mich & Nick

Sherley & Mich

Day-out with Angel

Took Angel's mum (my sis) to the hospital for a check-up. Angel and I waited in the car while mummy is doing her check-up. I was given a packet of raisins, with a message from message from my sis - use it when you REALLY need to! So I said "Ok!" She also said that if I can't stand Angel then bring her up to the clinic. I replied firmly that I'll be able to handle her. And as expected, she gave me a hard time. When we parked the car, I looked at her, and she looked back and said, "Sit yiyi's lap" (meaning that she wants to sit on my lap). So climbed out from her car seat and sat on my lap.

The first 10 minutes was ok...

Still doing fine... *I was supposed to be the one sulking*

I managed to get her to go back into her car seat...
But not for long... The next minute, she was at it again... She'll probably be an F1 racer when she grows up cos she really likes cars! How many babies can start a 7 series at the age of 1?

The Rings...

The Duck Ring wasn't the first ring that Johnson gave to me actually. He actually gave me the ring in the picture below as a gift, although i can't wear it cos it's way too big for me. Later he asked if he could "borrow" from me cos he wants to wear it. So i thought it was ok cos I can't put it into use anyway. And guess what? This is the ring that his ex-gf bought for him be he lied to me. OMG! How can he give it to me? I can't imagine him being that low. The other thing is, he told me that he has this ring which has the letter "H" on it, and he said it stands for "Ho", his surname... And you probably guessed it by now, it was a lie too... It's a gift from the ex-gf as well and it stands for her name. She has one with a "J" on it! WTF?? He even told his parents that it stands for his surname!! I really underestimated him... He can really lie straight into your face...

Nightout at Velvet

Got this shirt from Planet Hollywood... Cool eh? Victor made me take this picture cos he wants to fill him name in the blank space there. *waiting for it to be crossed out like others* LOL...

Having a drink at the Terrace Bar... The Latte was good...

Shiny Disco Ball = Victor

Pam & I

Pam & I in the toilet

Alicia, Daphne, Mich & Pam

A Wake Up Call

Got a call from one of his ex-gfs yesterday. She read my blog and she wanted to know whether I was talking about the Johnson that she knows. She told me stories of his serial cheating game. I can't believe what she said to me, I'm truly shocked. I doubted at first. But think of it again, why would she wants to bad mouth him when there's no benefit to her? Omg! How can this be him? No one believes it, but she has proof/witnesses to this. I'm slowly finding out more about this. He actually lied about other stuff too. About his family. I asked him once before, but he said he didn't know about it. I didn't doubt him a bit at first, but after all this, everything about him seems to be so fake. He said he hates sluts, hypocrites and liars! But he IS all these, maybe except for sluts. This is truly an eye opener cos he looked so innocent and tame, but deep down inside, he has another personality. He can really lie... I see the real him now...

Akon's Concert at Ruums

Went for Akon's concert at Ruums last night. I don't really like him but his music is good. The crowd was just shocking. The queue was from the entrance till the carpark. Luckily, we have VIP passes. Hmmm.... Actually we don't have passess. Haha... Thanks to Trina's friend, Amos, who was the organiser for the event, we managed to get in easily... without a pass... :p

Trina & Mich

Trina, Mich & Rick (He's a "half Malaysian")

Trina, Amos, Mich & Rick

Amos, the guy who claims that he can tell a girl's age by looking at her arms. I didn't believe it at first. So I stood sideway while he analyses my arm... He looked and thought out it... And he guessed it correctly! He's the first one who didn't think I was younger than that. Everyone guesses that I'm at most 22 years old. Haha. That is so flattering and I'm convinced, until Amos came along... and reveal the truth... LOL... Maybe it was my hair last night... Had it permed for a day... Gonna get back to normal when I washed it after I'm done with this blog entry...

Rick, a Caucasian. I think he's a mixed of British and Malay. He's great dancer. And not to mention sexy... :o Had so much fun dancing with him!

Thanks for making it a great night! I had so much fun!

Organised by MTV

It's freaking scary...

I went to Johnson for an answer today. And the answer shocked me. Very disappointed at what he did.

I went to asked him whether he changed my passwords. He said so firmly that he didn't. I gave him chance to admit it but he didn't take it. I said if he tells me now that it was him who did all that, then I'll forgive him. All i asked for is for him to give me back my passwords and my life back. You can't have a life of your own, but you can't stop me from having a good one. He kept denying. Then after all the arguments, I told him I'm gonna leave now and he can continue to be a liar. When I wanted to leave, his dad called. His dad knows everything cos Vincent told him. Thank God Vincent is a sensible guy. He knows what’s right and what’s not. I’m practically a stranger to him and he was willing to stand up for me! I wish Johnson could do the same, and I’m still wishing. Then he chased after me and did something very stupid. I said to him, "Johnson, I didn't touch you, you don't touch me. You have no right to touch me!" He asked me what I want now. I said to him I want back my passwords and I'll forget about everything. He kept saying that he didn't do it. I told him no one knows my passwords except for him, cos the passwords are about me and him. I said he was so stupid to unblock himself from my MSN. Who else would do that? He said he didn’t want to talk to me anymore, then why is he doing all this? I said I already let go and moved on. Tried to lead a normal life. I have freedom to do anything that I want. I'm not like him! I'm not restricted. I have my own say!

Then slowly his words are contradicting. I asked him again why did he do that. He said why I had to say all those things about his parents. I said, “You told me this yourself.” He replied, “I did not.” I said again, “You want the whole world to know about it? I have a recording of you saying that!” He asked me, “You actually recorded our conversation?” I replied firmly, “Yes! And lucky thing that I did.” If I didn’t, then he can lie all about it. I told him I wanted to let his dad listen to it yesterday but I did not do so cos I still love him and I’m not that cruel. After all, we did love each other before. We did care for each other before. I told him I underestimated him. I didn’t know he can come out with such a complete plan to change my passwords to everything. It’s freaking scary to know what someone I cared for so much would do such a thing to me. Before today, I still think I can accept him if he comes back one day where he finally comes to his senses. But now, I’m really disappointed. I’m speechless and I feel like I don’t know this person anymore. He’s like a stranger now.

Ok, then his dad came down. He thought I still want him back. He asked me, “What do you want now?” The minute he came down I know there is no way we can talk things through cos he always thinks he’s right. So I told him, “Uncle, I don’t want to talk to you. You’re the same. You just ask your son what he did to me. Please ask him to stop checking on my stuff.” He stared at Johnson and scolded him. As usual, Johnson did not fight back. I got in the car cos I know there’s nothing more to talk about cos his dad just won’t listen to people’s opinion. And I locked the door too. They were standing in front of my car. So I moved the car forward a bit, and they moved away. He was still scolding him. And I left, with Kok Heo. He was kind enough to accompany me there. Thanks! He gave me confidence and security. And he waited with me for Johnson. We went for lunch at Kim Gary at Sungei Wang, and of cos I had to buy him lunch right?? Before we reached there, Johnson’s dad called. I answered the first time cos I didn’t know it was him as he used his office phone. Then I hung up. He called again. I didn’t want to answer cos I know he was trying to get back his face as I rejected to talking to him just now. Maybe he wants to tell me off. Make it sound like I'm the one who is not letting go.

And so, we had lunch. When we finished, I got an sms, from Johnson’s dad. But it says there he’s Johnson. He admitted to deleting my blog. And so, the truth is revealed. I knew it was him, but I’m just disappointed cos it’s proven now. I’m so sad cos he turned like that. No one believes this!

Ok, that’s all for now. I’ve been through a hard day. Was awake since 5ish. I’m happy (or happier) now that I know the truth. Better to find out than later. I can’t believe that once I wanted to marry this guy. We both wanted little Johnsons and little Michelles. I still have those smses… Reading it reminds me of the day we met and how we got together. I’m still sad that it ended this way, but maybe it’s fate. He’s too young to handle relationships now. Hope he’ll understand one day.

I can't believe this!

I haven't been sleeping for days and yesterday was the only day that I can get myself to sleep. I tried so hard to tell myself it's all over now and so I should get back to normal and get some sleep. I woke up at 5.30am to go to the toilet then from far I can see that Messenger is logged out. As I went closer, it says that it has been signed out cos I was logged it at another location. So i tried logging in again. And guess what? It says that my password doesn't match the username! Luckily I still remember the answer to the secret question and I was able to recover my password. No one knows my password except for JOHNSON! WTF! I can't believe that he's doing all this to me. That's not it.... He even deleted entries to my blog! I'm sure those who have been keeping up with my blog knows that there is something missing! So i checked my mail and there was an email dated today, 2.34am, from Blogger. It was a request for password recovery. He even changed the password to my blogger so that I can't access to it. Why am I so sure it was him? Cos he's the only who has my password and I actually blocked him my my MSN as he said he doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore. I trusted even so I didn't even bother to change my password. But he disappointed me again! He even changed his phone number and terminated mine without even informing! Then I scrolled down to my MSN contact list, and guess what?? He was UNBLOCKED!! (I blocked him, AGAIN) OMG! I don't know why is he doing all this. His parents stopped him from having a life, and now he wants to stopped me from having one. Come on, it's MY blog! Blogging is a way to destress and speaking my most inner feelings to all the people that I love and who loves me! If he didn't want to have anything to do with me then why be bothered reading it?? It's 6.30am in ther morning now. Looks like I'm not going to be able to sleep again. And he must be having his own sweet dreams. I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!

I'll just blog again about the latest entry while it's still fresh in my mind.

My Conversation with Vincent

Yesterday I spoke to Vincent (Johnson's elder brother) about what happened and stuff. He's a nice guy indeed. i asked him why did he decide to leave home and go to Perth for work. And he said it's probably the same reason that Johnson and I split. I was not surprised. When I told him what happened, he protected Johnson and said whatever he did, wasn't at his own will. He was forced to do it. Vincent knows very well cos he himself has gone through all this shit before. He said it's not once, but many times. When I told him what the parents did and how unreasonable they are, he didn't get offended a bit. In fact, he agrees with me. I'm so glad that there is still one person in his family who has a brain that is working! I respect him for having the guts to walk out on his parents and go live a life on his own. He's working in Perth now leading a very NORMAL life, not a controlled one.

He said to let Johnson have some time to grow up and learn. Sooner or later, he WILL grow up, according to Vincent. I said to him, it must be WAY LATER then. I told him that at first his parents banned Johnson from talking to or seeing me. He was not surprised at all. When they did that to Vincent, he always ask for an answer, but as expected, no answers were given. YOU'RE JUST SUPPOSED TO LISTEN TO WHAT THEY SAY AND DO WHAT THEY WANT YOU TO DO!

Vincent said I could say anything I want cos he truly understands the situation. he kept saying that it wasn't Johnson, it was his mum. I asked him how can they probably do all that to Johnson. He said she probably threatens him. I asked him, "With what?" *scratching my head* He said she probably threatens to take everything away from him if he continues to have contact with me. Maybe Johnson still wants to live the luxurious life that he's having now. He even lied in front of his own parents. When his dad was around, he said different things and acted cold towards me. When his dad finally gave us some time to talk, alone, I asked him, "Did you lie just now?" And his answer was YES! If you can't be honest to your OWN parents, who are supposed to love you, how are u supposed to talk things through with them. I told Vincent that Johnson said he tried talk to the parents about us, but Vincent doubts that. He said, "I've never heard him talk." He said most of the time mum does the talking for him. OMG! Why can't the parents let go of him, let him make mistakes and learn from it? Johnson told me before that whenever he tries to discuss things with his parents and start giving opinions, they'll start shouting at him! If they love you, why would they not listen to you? I'm so blessed for having such understanding and wonderful parents.

Johnson changes his mind easily. His parents have too much influence on him. On Saturday, we actually broke it off as he said he cannot take the pressure anymore. And so I tried hard to forget and when I finally calmed myself down, I decided to go out with some friends. And guess what? He called. Asking me where I was. I said we broke up what, what else do you want? He said, " All those things that I said just now wasn't my choice! My parents was there and they want me to say it!" I was like, "What?" Don't you think I have feelings as well? Then I asked him, "What do you want now?" He said, "Of cos I want to save this! You know deep down inside I still love you." "If you love me then why aren't you doing something about it?" And he said to give him some time to sort things out with his parents. I was ok with it. I said we could just chat on the phone. I've already tolerated so much and yet all he could do is this?? It's your own life Johnson. Why do you want someone else to take charge of it? Don't you feel pressured and useless? How are you gonna grow up like that? I'm sure this is NOT THE FIRST TIME that your parents are doing this to u. How could you just give up and give in just like that?

Then we joked. I asked Vincent, "What if I start going out with you?" Then he laughed. I said, "Hey, I mean going out for drinks, NOT dating." He said sarcastically, "I didn't say anything, you're the naughty one." LOL. I was fun talking to him cos he's just so understanding. An amazing guy indeed. He deserves a good life like the one he's having now. We both hope that Johnson will wake up one day and stand up for himself. Vincent said he has talked to Johnson about this before, asking him not to live under his parents armpit anymore. But nothing works, cos he was like this since young. Whenever he wants anything, he'll just go to mum. It's the upbringing I guess. Maybe the mother is too afraid to lose him cos Johnson was spending so much time with. Johnson has thought of running away, but he said he has conscience. Or maybe he was too afraid to do it as he'll lose everything. It's not asking him to run away forever you know. Just take some time off from the parents and let them have the chance to think why is this happening? Why does my son want to run away from home? They should come to their senses one day ot Johnson will never grow up, have a life of his own, his own family and kids! For god's sake, just let him go. Even as a friend, I can't stand it to see him being treated like that. The worse thing is, HE accepted it! Sometimes you should really think for yourself. I know they are your parents and THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU! Not CONTROLLING you...

It Ended... with a ridiculous reason...

I've actually deleted this post cos he called me on Saturday night (after reading this entry), telling me that he wants to save this and deep down inside he still loves me. I was happy of cos. But all his words today just made me doubt that. I'm really sorry if i feel that way, cos that's how you're making me feel right now. He's confused himself. One minute he can say he'll make it work, but the next minute he can tell you that he can't take the pressure anymore. He really disappointed me. I have so much faith in him but I guess he's just not strong enough to stand up for himself and for us. I've given everything that I could to save this too. Of cos I'm sad to see it ending this way, but what can I do? I seem to be fighting the battle alone, all by myself. He said he knows that he still cares but his actions are so contradicting. I don't think that's the right thing to do if you love someone. It hurts so much deep down inside. I tried to stop thinking about him, about everything that happened since day one of our relationship. He changed so much since then. I wish I have the courage and ability to just erase him from memory and from everything else. But I feel wasted after what we've been through. We broke up cos of a stooopid misunderstanding and influence from the parents. What is life if you can't take your own charge of it??

Hey guys and gals, sorry for making you all worried about me. Everything is settled now, although it's not the way I want it... It wasn't cos I've changed or anything, it was just the pressure from some people who weren't supposedly have any say in the relationship. I was happy cos he told me before that this is his own life and those people were not supposed to have any effect it, but too bad, they DID! Oh well, at least I gave my best shot to salvage the relationship... So back to square one now... Of cos I'm sad, cos I'm NOT cold-blooded! I thought it was ok after all the negotiations... He said I was cruel to him when I didn't want to have any contacts with him, but what he didn't realise was the things that he said is a 100 times more cruel... But guys are so unpredictable and indecisive, aren't they? I can't believe what I heard and found out from him... Keeps saying that it wasn't me... it was because of the hard times that some people are giving him... I feel painful too to see him like that, but I'm frustrated cos he couldn't stand up for us! Maybe our love just wasn't strong enough to make him stand firm... I really had faith in him... thinking that he would go all the way to save the relationship... The words that he said to me just now, before we got off the phone, were just sooooo unexpected!! I cried cos I love him and didn't get loved in return... I told him before that he'll change, but he said firmly that he'll NEVER. Pretty disappointing, for a grown-up. Lucky thing I have parents who are so understanding and never force me to do a thing that I don't like. They always give me choice. After all, it's my life that we are talking here... Thanks mum and dad for being there, always. I know I upset you guys... *muackssss*
I won't hate him (or will I?), cos I know he loves me too... but they left him with no choice... Things can be really funny and nothing is certain... We were so much in love and he has always been so sweet and caring... Thought he would be the best and last one, guessed not now... Everything changed overnight! The worst new year that I ever had!! I still wish he could stand up one day and be who he wants to be, not what THEY want him to be... for his future sake... How can your parents decide who you love? or not to love? Sigh... I think I have put more than my fair share of effort in making him understand and making things work, but I guess he's not gonna be able fulfil all his promises... Goodbye...

Goodbye and Good Luck Ade!

Had dinner with Ade at Station One at Pertama before she heads back to Melbourne and starts her job. She is Dr. Adeline Chan now. Gosh... I'm gonna miss her!!

Ade & Mich

Weng Hoo, Ade & Tom

Best friends for life!

David (stooopid face), Ade & Jack

Mich & Weng Hoo

Haven't seen him for a long time. Nice catching up with ya!

Ok. I know this is weird. I started it :P Guess who's legs are these?

We all think the pants are too small for you...

Gratitude

I close my eyes and hold your hands so tight,

I really wanna thank you so much for showing me back the light,

I love you so much and I'll never let go,

You just seem to amaze me for all the things you do.

I can't believe that you're here by my side,

Looking everywhere all this while, just can't believe that you were just there beside,

Everytime you hold me close,

You just make me feel that there's nothing for me to lose.

For every thought I have is about you,

You gave me your love, something that's so new,

You showed me in life there is so much more,

You told me that you have never felt like this before.

I'm so happy, so grateful and so blessed,

My life is so complete there seems to be nothing less,

Everytime we're far apart,I just want you to know.. Just look inside my heart and I know that we'll never part.

Thank you baby so much for always being there for me,

And for always making sure that there is where you'll ever be,

I wanna tell you that you're the one I love so much,

And I appreciate every single time and all of your touch.

© Johnson Ho

Now at least there's something sweet to remind me of you...

New Year's Eve '06

Had dinner with the gang at One-U, at a restaurant called Dave's. I didn't get my dinner though. The service there sucks! We waited for 2 hours for the food to be served. Tom waited for more than an hour to get his ice-lemon tea. I wanted to start complaining when an hour has passed since we ordered, but David reckon we should wait a while more. So we waited. Another 30 minutes passed... and David looked at me and saw that look on face. He quickly said. "Ok ok. I'll go check. Don't get mad la. It's New Year." Ok. Then I waited again... till 2 hours passed. Then we decided to ask for the Manager. She came over and said to me, "Your food is coming in 5 minutes." And the I told her, "You make sure it's 5 minutes, otherwise please cancel it for me." She said "Ok." Then i started to time.... As expected, 5 minutes passed and the food wasn't here yet! Then I got pissed.... The Manager came over again... and this time she said 2 more minutes... Darn it! Then I told her off and I don't want it anymore... How can you expect your customers to wait for 2 hours for the food to come?? OMG! I'll never go back to that place again. Should've just gone for Burger King opposite! And the worse thing about Dave's is, they even charged us for WATER!! RM 1 per glass!! Can you believe it??

Ok. Enough about that. We left the place. Ade was complaining cos the rest of the gang didn't want to stay till midnite for the fireworks... The gang suggested that we head back to Ade's place straight for this... A 5 litre draught beer...

When we got the Ade's place, we asked everyone to hop in to David's car, an Estima which supposedly can fit 7 person, but there were 9 of us! We've decided to head to One-U for the fireworks after all. But before that, we stopped by McDonalds and grabbed some Coke and fries!

Look at Tom's face... He was so desperate to piss actually... That was our primary motive to stop by at McDs. Then we headed to One-U. It was jammed like mad! The cars were practically not moving! An uncle in the car next to us checked Ade out... Hehe... As we were getting closer to One-U, the fireworks started! Some of us climbed up the sunroof to see and some of us got down from the car... I didn't really fancy fireworks anyway... So I just waited for it to end...

At Ade's place...

A group picture... I don't know what was Jack or Seng Yong doing to Ade. She looks so excited in this picture... :P

Ok. This is more like it... Everyone looks normal... and HAPPY!

These are supposed to be beer... Cos the guys shook the can... So smart of them...

Fighting for beer?

And of cos, the strongest one won... Seng Yong was used to be thin, but thanks to the Gym, he's so buffed now...

Look at Ade's face... Alcoholic!

This is how we make the beer cold... We were drinking beer of room temperature, and it sucked!

Everyone... still looking sober...

Except for one!

Our very first Christmas Eve!

We went for X'mas Eve dinner at Roadhouse Grill at Jalan Ampang. The food was good and the company great! I had Fish & Chips, as usual, cos I don't really have much of a choice as I don't take read meat. This is the best Fish & Chips that I have tasted in KL. *yummy*

Then we went camwhoring the whole night!

Look closer... He's filing my nail.... *so sweet*

I Love You!

Lunch at Sushi King

Mei, Ade & Ming Yen

Met up with 3 doctors for lunch at Sushi King... It was really nice to see Mei (a "friend" for more than 10 years) again. We know each other for more than 10 years now but we were never friends until recently, during my visit to Melbourne... I thought she was a b**** back in elementary school... Lucky thing that i discovered she was not that bad after all. In fact, she's a really nice girl and fun to be with... And of cos, not to be forgotten is Dr. Tong Ming Yen a.k.a. "low yam chung"... *heehee* Not gonna see them for a long long time as they will be working in Oz next year... Wish u guys best of luck!!

Mich, Mei & Ade

The girls that made my trip to Oz memorable and fun! Gonna miss u heaps!! *muackssss*

Johnson & I

And a compulsory one with the LOML!

Johnson, Mich, Mei & Ade

I Love You...

Two months have passed and you're still in my heart

Every moment with you is just a pure bliss
Everytime I see you, it feels like the first time
Everything little thing that you've said and done is still so fresh in my mind
Every little joke of yours puts the biggest smile on my face

Everytime we part, it feels like I've been stabbed right through my heart

But I know it's never going to be the last

Cos together we'll be walking this journey of life till death do us apart
Wish you are the first person that I see everytime I wake up from sleep
And the last person that I say goodnight to before I head to bed
What else can I say, but thank you for bringing joy and hope into my life...

*I love u!*

Duck Ring

Little surpise from him... I love it! Thanks, baby! *muackssss*